Calm the fudge down!

Hello to everyone trying to get through life

Has anyone thought to themselves, there was just not enough hours in this day? Has anyone looked at their watch, seen that it is only 9:00 am and felt like you have been awake for far more than you are? I have, and if I am honest, this feeling was “normal” to me.

For some reason, I always seemed to be in a “hurry”. I was waking up the speed of light, zooming around the house to get done 10min earlier. After that, I was zipping through the traffic to get to work.  My trip to work is like the Amazing Race if I am not hooting unnecessarily, I am in a race with myself to get through the amber light so that I can add a minute less to my ETA.

At work, hurrying to meetings and rushing through the day.  After work, I must make it to the groceries store within 45min of my departure. When I get home, I drop my bag and rush to the kitchen like I need to get there in time to stay in the game.  Hastily, I ensure that supper is ready at my allocated time.

Eating when I must, but not enjoying the meal in front of me, because I am in a hurry to shower, read for 30min and get to bed. All this so I can repeat this crazy race of life that I have created for myself. It felt like I quickly needed to sleep so that I can start this race with myself again…lol.

Along with this urgency is the need to plan our lives down to the second.  What are we doing tomorrow, the coming weekend, next month, when is next year’s holiday, where will it be, what is the itinerary, what will we do on the trip?

If not for LockDown I bet that all of us (myself included) would have had this week planned! Perhaps, some of us would have a less detailed plan, but you would have an idea of how the week was going to go!

WHAT IS MY NEW NORMAL?

This LockDown has forced me to calm the fudge down. The race is over, and I won, YAY!

Yesterday, I was doing the dishes like I was in a marathon dishwashing contest. I stopped and laughed at myself realising that I have 16 days to wash them, what is the hurry? After this, giggle and self-realisation, which seemed like a tedious chore became enjoyable. I played music took my time danced around the kitchen and nonchalantly when through the day. 

Later, I was on my laptop, planning our next vacation. Then it occurred to me; I do not know when the LockDown will be lifted or when it will be safe to travel. I was overwhelmed at this thought, and a rush of panic overcame me. After a few deep breaths, I thought to myself for once “JUST BE”!

My new normal is slowing down and being on an unplanned holiday. I am relaxed; I have nowhere to be, I can do what I like at the pace that I like, for once I can just be.

 What is your new normal?